2 Timothy 1:8-10

“So do not be ashamed of the testimony about our Lord or of me his prisoner. Rather join with me in suffering for the gospel, by the power of God. He has saved us and called us to a holy life – not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace.”

I have to admit for a time I was ashamed of part of my testimony. The first time that I went inpatient at a Psychiatric Unit, I felt I let God down. Even though I read Scripture telling me things that should make me feel better in my weakness, it felt like it wasn’t meant for me. I gave up! When the world was too much, and my brain chemicals went haywire I looked for ways out of this hurt and it wasn’t towards God. I am not downplaying physical hurt, but mental hurt can be just as bad if not worse. There is no escape, or at least that is what it feels like. Thankfully I had a partner that recognized my falling into the pit and got me help. I was not appreciative at first, how dare you lock me up? But in the long run that is what I needed. This is also what I needed to reconnect with God. I had to; I could not go on another day without me acknowledging he was there. It was a slow process but now I can share my testimony and not be ashamed. Do you have a testimony you would rather not share?

 Dear Lord, thank you that you love me so much that no matter where I am in life you are there for me. Please forgive me for not turning to you sooner. Help me to continue to share my testimony with others. I ask this in Jesus’ name, Amen.